Since I started moving my stuff into my new apartment, I've noticed that everytime I'm out there - at the Barrington Place complex, though not so much in the apartment itself, I'm tormented by thoughts and fears of being spied upon, like voyeurism, attacked and/or raped on the grounds of my new apartment complex, etc., etc. It's a constant battle to combat the fears, and I don't understand why it's happening. I've done the best I can to pray before making any decisions about where to live, and I prayed about moving to Barrington Place - if I should or not. It seemed like the doors opened and God made a way for it to happen when there was no way in the natural - I passed the credit check and they rented to me when I had no job.
So whether I'm supposed to be there or not, I am. It's too late to back out. I've signed the lease, signed it for a year. I asked Pastor Jack about it - why I would be encountering this kind of spiritual warfare - and he said that maybe God wants me to pray for Rancho Cucamonga. That makes sense. So I guess that's what I'll do!
I'm going to sleep there for the first time tonight, and I'm moving Lily there permanently as of tonight. The whole point of making this move now instead of later is because of the mold problem in my apartment in Irvine, and specifically because of how it's affecting Lily's breathing. It's been affecting her breathing for a very long time. I can only hope that her respiratory system isn't permanently damaged because I delayed for so long. I'm just going to have to trust in the Lord that she'll be all right. When I took her to the vet a couple of weeks ago, Dr. Peth said she's in very good health, inspite of her breathing problems, which surprised me and left me feeling quite relieved. However, that doesn't make the urgency of getting her out of my Irvine apartment, and into my new apartment where the air quality is better any less. So we will make the move this evening. It'll be fun to see how she reacts to the new environment in the apartment in Rancho Cucamonga.
Life is great and God is good!
So whether I'm supposed to be there or not, I am. It's too late to back out. I've signed the lease, signed it for a year. I asked Pastor Jack about it - why I would be encountering this kind of spiritual warfare - and he said that maybe God wants me to pray for Rancho Cucamonga. That makes sense. So I guess that's what I'll do!
I'm going to sleep there for the first time tonight, and I'm moving Lily there permanently as of tonight. The whole point of making this move now instead of later is because of the mold problem in my apartment in Irvine, and specifically because of how it's affecting Lily's breathing. It's been affecting her breathing for a very long time. I can only hope that her respiratory system isn't permanently damaged because I delayed for so long. I'm just going to have to trust in the Lord that she'll be all right. When I took her to the vet a couple of weeks ago, Dr. Peth said she's in very good health, inspite of her breathing problems, which surprised me and left me feeling quite relieved. However, that doesn't make the urgency of getting her out of my Irvine apartment, and into my new apartment where the air quality is better any less. So we will make the move this evening. It'll be fun to see how she reacts to the new environment in the apartment in Rancho Cucamonga.
Life is great and God is good!
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